Monthly Archives: January 2013



A while ago I blogged about my issues with packing a case to go on holiday with… Many of you shared similar sentiments- so I didn’t feel quite as alone! Well, as I’ve been trying to push through my pain barriers with lots of things recently, I’ve started trying to think through ways that might help make the process a little easier.

I have some reticence using the word ‘solutions’ as I don’t want to give the impression that I think everything is ‘fixable’ I’m not entirely sure it is. I think sometimes we have to just either accept or sit with those unpleasant things that don’t actually feel fixable at all… I’m not sure- I think my thoughts on suffering are evolving all the time.

However, in this instance I was trying to think through ‘solutions’ to minor things not the meaning of life! So my progress thus far…

1) I have made steps forward in the packing arena. I have created a going away toiletries bag. It has absolutely everything I need… So instead of trying to find a small enough bottle to hold my shampoo in, I have a set ready to go. I also have an emergency supply of medications, as on more than one occasion I have been known to forget them! A holiday toothbrush and toothpaste as it is so annoying not being able to pack the toiletry bag until after the final cleaning of teeth! I also have a hairbrush- but that has temporarily been moved to the gym bag- so I need to pick up another one when I see one. I LOVE my holiday toiletry bag- it has minimised my stress considerably and I feel very proud of it. To top it all, last week on a snow day I even managed to decant various lotions and potions into my new travel bottles curtesy of primark. Such a feeling of satisfaction!


2) knitting needles… I have various different sizes and shapes and too many for my lovely funky needle bag I’ve had for years. It was very annoying needing to empty out the whole bag to find that elusive number 6… Again on snow day… Inspiration arrived… So much simpler! And I thought this one up all by myself!!!


3) washing up…
Things are greatly improved there because basically I have a house mate and I have to keep on top of it – and I feel so much better for doing so. As you all know I have also started baking and cooking properly and the washing up has been significantly helped by filling my sink with warm soapy water so that when I’ve finished with something I can just put it straight into soapy water. I know everyone else has most probably been doing it for years- but it was a new discovery for me. It really helps!!!!

So, I suppose my challenge to us all, is can we do anything to make life a bit easier for ourselves sometimes? Life can be very tough- but maybe we can help ourselves in the smallest but most helpful ways…????

Thanks for listening.


New eyes


Since yesterday’s blog I’ve been thinking about how I ‘see’ things. I mentioned that my birthday presents seemed so much more vivid this year than last. And i know this has nothing to do with the presents- they were as colourful, quirky and funky as this year. the difference was me. i can ow see things in colour a bit more, instead of just monochrome. and i like that feeling very much.

This morning i was reading a chapter from Mark Williams’ and Danny Penman’s book entitled ‘mindfulness- a practical guide to finding peace in a frantic world.’the beginning of chapter 3 starts with this quote:

“The real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking out new landscapes but in having new eyes. (Attrib. Marcel Proust, 1871-1922)

I think this sums up the process I am currently in. Seeing myself, God, others and the world around me with different eyes. It reminded me of the account of Hagar and Ishmael in the Old Testament book of Genesis. They had been expelled from Abraham’s household and Hagar places her son Ishmael under a bush as she couldn’t bear to see him die. The account says- “God heard the boy crying… Then God opened her eyes and she saw a well of water.” (Genesis 21 verses 17-19)

I do not know whether the well was already there and God enabled her to see what was previously hidden from her or whether God supernaturally created a well in that moment. Both options to me are equally miraculous- His creative power in creating a well or enabling her eyes to see His provision previously hidden because of her distress. Either way, ‘God opened her eyes’. I want that to continue so that I can see both those things in front of me and those things yet unseen more clearly whether they are the colours of a spoon or the depths of His love.

Thanks for listening.

Time goes by…


I’ve been brewing a few blogs over the last few days, and today I have the opportunity to put fingers to keyboard and start to post some of them.

For my birthday I was overwhelmed with beautiful and thoughtful gifts… This year, I could appreciate them so much more… The colours just seemed more vivid- the use of them more possible…

One of my favourites is this phone bought by my brother (sourced by my sister!)


(I’ve covered my phone number- because like in the olden days with a type writer my number is displayed for all to see!)

I LOVE this phone… The colours… The shape… The solidity of it… The feeling of properly being on the phone. I look at it in my bedroom and smile. Thank you.

But I also realised that I wasn’t using it! I could sense myself not quite wanting to spend the time putting my finger in the dial and turning it round one number at a time to connect with someone. Touch phone keypads are so much quicker! And this morning, I realised how silly it was- that I had let speed be so important to me, I was avoiding my new beautiful phone. I need to slow down- I want to slow down… I will slow down.

Mindfulness, a key element of DBT- is the skill of being in the moment. I rang a dear friend earlier from my strawberry and cream phone and let myself experience every turning of the dial, every sound of the dial retracting… It was lovely. As I stay at home in this snow day, I am consciously slowing down… Taking my time… Speed is no longer king- experiencing the moment is.

Thanks for listening.



Today, something lovely happened. I was creating a wordle for my business. I have just discovered wordle… And I love using the package to create such lovely looking pieces of text. Over the new year I had been brainstorming words to try and capture the essence of my business. And today I put it into wordle as I plan to print and frame it.

As I was playing about with the font and the colours… I pressed ‘randonmize’ and this one came up. I instantly loved it. When I looked at the name of the font, it is called ‘loved by the King’.
I like that.
I am loved by the king and I want my business to be about sharing that love.
I felt very cherished in that moment. Thank you.


Thanks for listening.



Alas, following on from my pinging… Things haven’t quite turned out as expected!

The pork, tomato and rice dish was meant to be cooked at 8.15… It now 9.30 and it still isn’t done! I realise my mistake- the recipe book told me to add the tomatoes and rice to the pan on the hob… But because my pan isn’t big enough I stirred the tomatoes and rice in the slow cooker- which I now realise would have been cold- hence chewy meat and hard rice!

I realise slow cooking is slow cooking but at the risk of not eating until midnight- I have succumbed to toast- which as you can see ha turned out the opposite to the pork- a little overdone!


While waiting for the pork I have been continuing my crochet started this morning… It was meant to be a square!!!!! Not quite sure what’s happened there!


And you know what… It doesn’t really matter. Previously I would have got down hearted, criticised myself and vowed never to try again. It’s fine… The pork isn’t cooked, the toast is burnt and the crochet is squiffy… And I think it is hilarious. I’ve had a good day- lots of new experiences and valuable lessons. No one has got hurt… I’ve not been perfect- but boy I’ve done good.

The only thing is- i just can’t do the soup now- at this rate I’ll be having a midnight feast of pork and the soup might be ready for Monday!

Thanks for listening.

Even I’m surprised!


Even I can’t quite get over myself… This morning I stated to crochet… Tick…

This afternoon my lovely brother-in-law attached ornamental butterflies to the outside of my house… Tick

On my request, he then taught me how to drill holes… My lack of DIY skills has always been an irritation to me- so I decided to do something about it… I did ok on my first lesson- he left me two planks of wood to continue my practise! Tick…


Then this evening I am cooking a pork, tomato and rice dish in my slow cooker- enough for 4 meals hopefully… Tick…

Then the lovely tesco man delivered my shopping- I have found myself with about 4 times the quantity of carrots that I thought I ordered… So have found a carrot and coriander recipe for the slow cooker, which I will prepare after eating the pork and then cook over night… I able to use my housemates coriander seeds- I don’t have a mortar and pestle, so a rolling pin and tea towel will have to do…

Who said miracles didn’t happen? Living one… Is very exciting!

Must fly my pinger has pinged!
Thanks for listening.

New things


This morning, back home in England… I thought it was really important to start as I mean to go on. It’s really easy to get back into old routines- just thing tele, surfing the net… And I don’t just want to exist… I was really productive in France and I want that to transfer back home.

So this morning, still a hour in front of myself… I started crocheting. I sourced a tutorial on YouTube (with YouTube, I think you can learn anything!) and with finger over the pause button… I started. Here is my first attempt- not perfect in any sense… But a start. I certainly will never despise the day of small beginnings… Who knows where it may lead! I have my eye on crocheting a teapot cozy with flowers on top for holiday friends… Might take a while… But it’s on it’s way!

Thanks for listening.