My DBT homework is specifically to blog about specific things as agreed with Penelope. This doesn’t happen very often but often in my sessions we talk about the things I haven’t blogged about and the reasons why. Interestingly, shame is often at the root of my absence. It is also noteworthy for me that the shame has some recurring themes to it… Anything that involves prioritising myself or something nice happening to me seems to elicit in me a temptation to hide. To hide the facts but also to hide myself.
I also acknowledge the need to justify myself and my actions- to others and to myself.
The next 3 posts are vulnerable for me. Don’t panic they are nothing sordid or socially unacceptable- but they are about being trying to treat myself well- and that is hugely challenging for me. Which is why I’ve been set the tasks. I am going to attempt not to justify or explain, I will just report. Eek… Very scary!
Here goes! …
Thanks for listening.